Liebe
| Deutsche Mein Gott. Hilf mir. Die Mauer hält uns fest Bewachung unserer Träume. Diese tödliche Liebe halte mich vom Sehen ab der Frieden wie der sowjetische Führer gibt dem Osten einen Kuss. Werden wir jemals frei sein? Hilf uns bitte. | English My god. Help me. The wall keeps us in guarding our dreams. This deadly love keeping me from seeing the peace as the soviet leader gives the east a kiss. Will we ever be free? Help us please. |
Am I?
Perfect
a seven letter word
meaning, having all the required
or desired
qualities.
Is it measured through
our eyes?
our hair?
our lips?
our hands?
Or is it a word,
characterized by ridiculous standards
and lies…
Or is it a word,
implementing doubt into the minds
of its creator…
Perfect
often confused with
great
or
good.
In hopes of retaining its state of being
and physicality.
Where people wish for everlasting peace
and in return are given internal deceit
Imperfect.
Im.
Perfect.
Meaning my physique won’t get in the way of being me.
Meaning no other persons definition of perfection,
will contest with the me I am content in.
A.D.H.D
Attention!
Anyone can you see me?
Anxiously waiting for the day to be complete.
Determined to imagine,
dedicated to generate.
Do you even understand me?
Happy to be alive.
Hyper and energized.
How do I become normal?
Depressed and
delusional.
Dreaming of the impossible.
Are you done humiliating and dehumanizing me?
Youth
Youth is beautiful
it gives us truth
creates a roof
built above a foundation
laid out by our parents,
but built up through our imagination.
Youth is innocence
the understanding of nothingness
living in a world of faithfulness
making a meaning out of everything
wanting to explore and
fit more knowledge into our childlike minds.
I want to be free
again.
To a T
6:15 crank open your eyes and become pleasing to all others design.
8:00 open the door to your supposed predetermined fate.
9:00 I’m writing this for a reason you wouldn’t believe.
10:20 listen to people sooth your anger with deceit.
10:45 time to sleep.
11:20 tiempo para aprender un idioma que no hablas.
12:55 what is free will, and is it something we will ever believe?
14:20 learn about a history that we will without a doubt repeat.
15:30 pour your heart out for the benefit of greed.
18:00 keep your mouth shut, you deserve none of what you’re offered to trust.
19:30 pay attention, it’s time to get stuff done.
23:00 good night.
Sleep
Words
Pictures
Thoughts
Fears
All storming my brain as I get into my bed.
What will I wear tomorrow?
Do I have all my homework done?
Did I remember to set my alarm?
What time is it?
10:30
ok
So that means I’ll get 7 hours and 45 minutes of sleep.
Grades
Stress
Anxiety
Depression
All raining down into my thoughts as I pull up my covers.
How did I do on my math test?
I think I got number 8 wrong.
What’s for breakfast I’m–
Boom
Every thought
Every word
Every picture
Every fear
Gone.
Lucid
The perfect summer day
painted before me
telling a story.
Birds chirping along to a mating song
swinging on my seat as I sing along.
Noon is portrayed through
the angle at which the sun lays.
Polin and the breeze
making it hard to breathe.
It’s picture perfect.
Staring out my mind seems blank.
Piercing screams ring out
as my world is enveloped in flames.
Tournent and anger
grievance and labour.
A horrific beep
is blaring at me.
Causing more things to go wrong
in my once summer scene.
Im awake.
Poetry Paragraphs
Poetry seems almost therapeutic to me in the sense that all my poems discuss topics that are quite personal to me and are things I am truly interested in talking about. Poetry itself allows me to convey an emotion through both wording and sentence structure, so I can get across my message in an understandable manner for everyone. My poems do definitely excel in touching on subjects others may be too scared to write about, or may not know about. It is through these poems that I dig deep into certain moments in my life, and over analyse them in order to create a stronger mood for the poem. There are also many instances where words can not do a subject justice, and that is when creativity in font, sentence structure, and grammar come into play. The ability to use these sorts of things to further convey a feeling in the reader makes the overall writing process more fun for me and I feel more connected to poems that I take the time to adjust the different physical aspects of. Overall, the complete free will you are given when writing poetry is exciting and makes me just want to keep on writing more.
Though I do have a lot of fun writing deep poetry I do struggle with other aspects of poetry such as grammar, ideas, and rhythm. When writing poetry it is typically thought that they have to have a rhyming scheme, but that is not true. Knowing this many of my poems do not rhyme, and that is simply because of my lack of ability to find words that would fit my rhyming scheme. An easy order to fall into is trying to have the last word of each line end in the same letters, but certain letters can prove to be hard to come up with words for that will both follow this rule and will make sense with the poems overall message. Along with crazy rhyming schemes, I also struggle with sticking to a poem long enough to complete it. Since I usually write darker poems, when I try to write poems about happy scenes I usually get bored or am just unable to really connect to the poem so I do not finish it. It should also be noted that because I rely on poetry so heavily as a therapeutic experience I struggle when told to follow certain guidelines. My brain is always coming up with ideas for poetry, and adding additional restrictions to such a free activity limits my thought process. This obviously is not a bad thing, but it just meant that I need to work on being both creatively free while also being structurally constrained. Overall, poetry has helped me to calm down in times of immense stress, and like I tell other people “poetry class is like sitting in a coffee shop and talking to your friends about your day,” in that it is both creatively strenuous and physically relaxing. Overall, poetry is a way to speak your mind through symbols, and convey emotions you may have never before believed could be expressed leaving the mind blank and happy.
Olivia Testa 